Snow

First real snow. I wish it had happened earlier, or later. Good thing it's happening on a Friday night so people can freak out only slightly tomorrow instead of sliding into each other on their way to work. I downloaded a lot of cold music today. Songs that remind me of when I was 18 and lived with my mom during the last winter of high school. Songs that I listened to while walking in the snow, sharing cigarettes and headphones with the boy I had an incredibly repressed crush on. I think being really cold makes raw emotions come out...I touched on this last year when I hypothesized that frostbite could be a form of self-harm. When I'm feeling particularly fucked up in the winter I like to walk barefoot in the snow. It usually involves tequila though, which is cheating.

I went to a get together tonight that was 80% law students, and although they are my friends, it annoys me that they talk about law school the entire time they are together. I think we managed to talk about Harry Potter and Twilight for about 20 minutes. The rest was law school. Which was unfortunate for the 4 boyfriends of law students who could not care less what we were talking about. But I warned my boyfriend it would be like this and gave him the option of not going, so he only has himself to blame I guess. Pretty sure I was the only person there who is not on main journal, which means it was truly the biggest dorks of them all (which I say lovingly of course). Part of the reason I wanted to be on JDR was that I thought it would be slightly easier to become editor in chief. I overlooked the fact that most of my friends are super-nerds. Oh well.

As pathetic as I know this sounds, part of the reason I am mad it's snowing is that I wanted to go to school tomorrow and I don't want to have to drive in this crap. I hope it gets plowed up so I don't have an excuse. I'm having separation anxiety from school. It's been 4 whole days since I have done work inside the building, and I really feel unproductive and am regretting not doing much the past few days. I did manage to spend 185 dollars on shirts from j crew today and 200 dollars on books for next semester, so I did my part to improve the economy.

Trying to go to bed before 5, which means I have to start reading now to lull myself to sleep.