Asshole

I talked to an ex-boyfriend the other day, and it made me realize what a fucking jerk I used to be. I dated him for my own twisted reasons and then when I didn't need him for that anymore I broke up with him. Of course, we didn't date long enough for me to have actually broken his heart or anything, but it was still stupid of me.

I have always blamed the way I acted back then on the fact that I hated my life. If the same situation occurred today though, I would probably act the same way. That just proves I'm an asshole deep down and it doesn't matter whether I have an excuse for the things I do or not.

Maybe I'm just trying to "pay forward" all the asshole things people have done to me.

On that note, I plan on getting really drunk on my birthday. The last time I was really drunk was probably sometime in 2007, so this should be really entertaining.