A long time

I haven't been writing because I haven't had time where I felt I could procrastinate for a while. Also I was probably scared of what I might say.

Sometimes you hit a day in the year where you feel the rest of the year can be different. I feel like that today. It's sunny and beautiful. Our journal banquet is tonight, and it becomes more official that this year's board is done (though they still have a crapload of work to do) and our board has taken over. I decided I want to run a few 5ks so I'm motivated to really start running again, and I can because I have great medication to prevent my migraines. That in itself is pretty much a miracle. I thought I was destined to suffer terrible migraines for the rest of my life, and being without them has been incredible.

I hit a low on Thursday where I got into a bad mood, couldn't get out of it, and drank way too much because of it. Then I missed class Friday and foolishly got a parking ticket on top of it. After a low, I often learn a lesson though. I can't let other people effect how I feel about myself.

When I started law school, all I wanted was to get good grades and make money. Now that I'm the editor in chief of my journal, I've made a moot court team, and I've made a lot of good connections with other students, I feel like I've accomplished things that I never even really planned on. Yet I find that these things make me feel better than just getting A's or thinking of money. I want a job for the summer because I want to prove I can do everything at once. I want to put what I've learned to a productive use and show myself I can apply what I've learned to real situations.

As crazy as it sounds, becoming friends with people who are more like me and who understand me had made me feel so much better. I used to think I was above needing people. To some extent I still think that, but having someone that you can talk to about anything is really important. I was going without that for a few months and it was bad. I have a knack for fucking up friendships though, so I'm going to work hard to not let them get destroyed.

I'm going to enjoy this beautiful day for a few minutes, then finish my final Advanced Legal Writing project, and look forward to working out tonight.